dear Sofie

It's 2.30am and I am wide awake. In the last hour I have checked on you 4 times. For the record, you are sleeping peacefully in your crib.

This past month has been a strange one, you stopped sleeping through the night and have woken up crying almost every night. This is very unusual for you. The exceptions to this have been hotel stays: 2 nights in Saint John, NB and 2 nights in PEI where you slept like a champion? Maybe you're like your parents and love staying in hotels. Anyway, the nights haven't gotten any easier and for the past week you've been sleeping in our bed with us. I don't mind this at all, we both get good nights sleep. And I love snuggling with you and waking up to your huge blue eyes staring at me. But I've been worried about never being able to get you back into your crib ever.

Up until now I've just put you to sleep with nothing in the crib. I've been terrified of you suffocating on a blanket or bumper pad or your pajamas, or anything really. But you look so lonely in that big crib. And did I mention you haven't been sleeping and I'm officially exhausted? So tonight I put you to sleep with a warm blanket that your nana made for you (I know it's almost August and all of this defies logic, the blanket probably would have been helpful in March, but you were sleeping then). And like magic, you are peacefully asleep. This is the first night in a month that you haven't already woken up twice and it didn't take me 5 attempts to initially get you to sleep. You love that blanket. Each time I go in to check on you, you are snuggled up with that thing. But you are freaking me out because it's so close to your face that I have to gently pull it back so that I can see your nose.

God I'm tired. Sleep tight with your magic blanket Sofie. Since I'm awake I think I'll have a snack....