dear sofie

I want to record your milestones. That's one of the reasons why I write you these posts. Someday I will re-format them, print them off, and put them in your baby book. Speaking of, your baby book arrived in the mail last week and it is beautiful! Unfortunately, it made me feel like a bit of a delinquent parent because I haven't recorded a number of things: your first smile - I know it happened almost immediately, but your first 'true' smile? I'm not sure. Somewhere between your 2nd and 3rd month, is that good enough? I hope so.

Which brings us to last night. I'm pretty sure your dad and I experienced your first temper tantrum. You were wild last night. Around 6.45pm I started our regular evening routine. Bath followed by nursing in the rocking chair. At 8pm you were asleep in my arms and I walked you into your room. I rocked you for 5 minutes. From there, I have no idea what happened, but you woke up and didn't stop screaming until you passed out at 11.15pm. You have never done anything like that before. I tried every single thing in my arsenal of tactics and there was no stopping you. I've never had you scream that much and not be able to calm you down. You were kicking your legs and banging your fists like a 2 year old. I honestly didn't know babies could do that. And you pulled out some new cries too. From the sound and intensity of them, you.were.pissed.

So what the hell happened Sofie? Were you over-tired? Teething? Too hot? followed by too cold? Hungry? Not hungry? All of the above?

All I know is that I'm exhausted today and hoping to god that never happens again. Do you hear me? That shits not cool little one.

Love,
Mama.