ch-ch-changes

Woah.  Sometimes when you ask for something... it comes. So be prepared.  I feel like life is moving really quickly right now, so I'm trying to stop and take it all in as much as possible.

I've been feeling really unsettled lately, trying to figure out what my 'next' step is.  I've been putting all of my extra time, love, energy and work into a business plan for my own child care centre.  It's really exciting for me and also really terrifying... owning my own business, developing a business model, figuring out how to translate my ideas for something dynamic and innovative and inspiring in the city, which currently doesn't exist [in child care, that is].  How do you do that? One step at a time I guess.  And then life steps in.  And the whole being 32 thing... yikes. Where did this pressure come from? It's really tricky to keep things in perspective and not get caught up in this prevailing idea that I have to figure it all out today....  I hope collectively our ideas towards living and being are changing, becoming more modern, more realistic, more supportive, more... human.  Because life doesn't work that way anymore.  We're not graduating, getting jobs, getting married, keeping that job, buying homes, keeping that job, having babies, and eventually retiring from that one job.  That's not life anymore. And that is un-settling. I feel like our ideas towards ourselves and what that means for us over the course of our lives, as well as our daily lives needs to catch up to it.  We're all okay.  The world is infinitely messed up, but I think we're okay. Don't you?

So where am I going with this... I got a promotion at work.  As of Monday I will be the new Assistant Director at my centre.  Management! gah! This fabulous opportunity is literally being handed to me. To me! And all I can think of is what a valuable experience this will be for me professionally, the type of experience so necessary as to eventually run a successful business.  Of course, I'm completely terrified. I've never managed adults.  Not real, grown up humans.  Just the wee ones.. that's my experience. But I kind of feel that if I approach it the way that I deal with kids, with mutual respect, honouring integrity, active listening and careful observation, that maybe it will be okay.  And that they won't hate me.  I hope they don't hate me.  So while I'm mostly feeling really excited and challenged in a way that I haven't felt since I decided to go to grad school.. I'm also completely terrified inside. But don't tell anyone at work, okay?

Thanks universe.

I can't find a better clip of George Michael being promoted to Mr. Manager, but this one will do.

"Right, it's up to me now. I'm Mr. Manager.

Manager. We just say...

I know, but you...

Doesn't matter who...."

Brilliant.