birth.

extraordinary! Conception to Birth on TED talks.

AND, we have a doula! I met with her today and feel pretty pumped about what's to come. AND, we bought these today, I mean come on, seriously. Right?

Thirsties cloth diapers from Fiddleheads, the best kids store in the city. 

Toys R Us, however, was an epic fail, no stroller for us today. What a god awful place. But other than that, a pretty great day.

expectations VII.

Dear Bebe,

I think about you all the time. Part of me still doesn't actually believe that you will come out and be ours forever. You'd think with all of this thinking that I'd get it. I still find you a mystery little baby.

Walking home from work today I started to make a list in my mind, my favourite things and not favourite things about being pregnant with you. Top 5's, if you will. Here they are:

Top 5 Faves:

+ Feeling you move inside me. It's not what I imagined it to feel like at all! It's not gentle or soft or sweet. It's intense and sporadic and surprising and amazing. I want to be hooked up to an ultrasound machine like some Tom Cruise slave so I can watch you move all around all day

+ strangers smile at me all the time

+ I walk really really slow now. It's become a common occurrence for senior citizens to pass me on the sidewalk. Today, a guy on crutches passed me. That was a new one. I laughed out loud

+ excited anticipation of whats to come

+ having this magical, special time with your papa. just the two of us experiencing this together

Top 5 Least Faves:

+ my hair looks terrible. every day, all the time. terrible.

+ I forget everything

+ with all of the walking, my feet hurt constantly. I really don't like this

+ unsolicited 'advice'

I only have 4 least faves. That's probably a good thing.

We went to a baby shower in Sydney on the weekend, just for you. We were surrounded by love, laughter and great food. Your family is pretty spectacular. We are both very lucky ladies.

Love, Mama.

heights.

I Believe I can Fly ( flight of the frenchies). Trailer from sebastien montaz-rosset on Vimeo.

Wow. This is spectacular. The footage is absolutely incredible. Driving home today from Cape Breton I was thinking about motherhood and expressing to M. about what a giant P I am about almost everything in life (the dark, rodents, heights, strangers outside my windows, rollercoasters, the list goes on). Watching a video like this is pretty inspiring and reminds me not to take anything too seriously. These guys are bananas. And just about anything is possible.

a boy named sue.

One of my favourite Shel Silverstein poems:

Where the Sidewalk Ends
There is a place where the sidewalk ends
And before the street begins,
And there the grass grows soft and white,
And there the sun burns crimson bright,
And there the moon-bird rests from his flight
To cool in the peppermint wind.

Let us leave this place where the smoke blows black
And the dark street winds and bends.
Past the pits where the asphalt flowers grow
We shall walk with a walk that is measured and slow,
And watch where the chalk-white arrows go
To the place where the sidewalk ends.

Yes we'll walk with a walk that is measured and slow,
And we'll go where the chalk-white arrows go,
For the children, they mark, and the children, they know
The place where the sidewalk ends.

expectations VI

Dear Baby,

Right now, I am:

feeling:: you moving all around me, all the time

seeing:: fall changing to winter

knowing:: you're coming this winter

eating:: everything

pleasantly surprised:: with how easily and effortlessly your room came together. i love it in there.

wondering:: what you will look like, sound like, think, be like

grateful:: for health, family, love and joy. everyday.

knitting:: a blanket for you. it's taking me a really long time. there are plenty of mistakes but i quite like it so far.

sewing:: a cape for your cousin. i can't wait for you to meet him.

listening:: to Christmas music. already. i feel it's necessary this year.

planning:: family Halloween costumes for next year.

This is me at 28 weeks, officially entering my third trimester with you. I'm stunned.

Love, Mama.

what do babies think?

I haven't read her book, but have been meaning to. So stoked to see her give a TED talk!

I've been spending more time in the Infant room at work, watching these little ones knowing that we'll have one in a few short months. Shocking! But watching an 8th month old and a 12th month old interact, play, and respond to each other without words is pretty inspiring. Group care for babies doesn't have to be a scary thing (if done right). It can be pretty awesome.

"maybe we should be getting the adults to think more like children" *gold*

oh happy day.

red clogs I found you!! thank you Berlin! Will be visiting here momentarily....